Growing Over the Distance

Today is another really happy day. All because of the conversations we had on the phone. It is so strange how it gets to this point. I thought being far in distance would be torturing. Yes… it is still torturing since there’re times I really want to see him. But to be honest. In a far distance, we give each other some space to think about each other … to think about each of ourselves …and most of all ..we have time to miss each other (at least, that’s what I believe). Being far gives us time. It’s time to slow down the passion and grow up the real good feelings toward each other. Yes, I had a lesson to take some time. And I’m taking time for this relationship to grow bit by bit. Grow the knowings and understandings in one another. Grow our thoughts. Grow our hearts. No rush… I keep in mind. I just want things go slow but naturally. It is, I admit, hard to believe that although we’re this far, our feelings keep on growing ( and it’s getting really big now.) through lovely and happy conversations. Lovely conversations get me fresh but happy conversations give me warmth.

Yes… it is hard to find someone who can have this conversation with you. It is harder when another feels the same. I was worried that I may had gone beyond the line that my feelings grew too big. I was afraid that if my feelings grew bigger than another one. I still doubted I confessed. But I started to not care because …what da hell! I’m feeling it. What can I do? I’m feeling it. So just let it be. I may get hurt? Fine! Better than not letting my heart feel this blossom at all.

Yes… conversations. Words. Thoughts. Excitements. Sweetness. Truths. Passions. Feelings. They all matter. They just make me smile.

…again. It’s just what I believe…



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